jeric-kripke:

oldfilmsflicker:

thedailywhat:

Marriage Proposal of the Day: The planning! The dorkiness! The tears!

So imperfect it’s perfect.

[thanks, rob!]

omg

holy shit

i would have promised you my soul

Daaaaawwwwweeeee…. sweet pea.

This is what my phone looks like when I walk home alone late at night. Hey creep, ya better check yo’self!! (Taken with instagram)

mattlyon:

Anthousai

Sometimes I think that if you looked at my brain it’d look like this… with dark clouds here and there. 

COLOURS!!!!!

This is a bit of a follow-up from the picture of my alarm clock I posted last night.

There was an event that James went to.  He invited me, of course, and I considered going.  But I work at 6am every day - so I was smart and decided to pass.  He left at about 7:30pm and came home at 2:00am drunk, smelling like a skunk.

So glad I didn’t go.

There was a time that I would totally sacrifice my workday without thinking twice for a night on the town - seeing, being seen.  But not anymore.  I don’t care too much about that kind of thing around here anymore.  Going out with my friends, laughing, dancing etc used to be fun.  It doesn’t feel that way anymore.  The people I used to enjoy doing this with have either changed or moved away.  I have changed.  My life does not rely on alcohol or partying anymore.  It did for so long.  That’s what I worked for all week long.  Now my weekends consist of reading, movies, errands the occassional fun activity and LOTS of sleep.  I guess I don’t mind that.

So, while my social life will, and has, suffered.  My mind will not.  My body will not.  My sleep patterns will not. :)  So be it…

Early to bed, early to rise… makes my social life pretty much non-existent. Damn you! (Taken with instagram)

In other news… I have been smoke-free for FIVE WEEKS!!!!

Depression has been a constant battle for me.  I find that my meds have been helping for the most part (as long as I remember to take them) but I don’t believe it’s something that can be completely solved that way.  It takes a lot of mental strength and focus.  It’s also important to keep yourself healthy.  Take care of your body so your mind can rest easy once in a while.

I was in quite a slump the last couple of days.  Getting up for work was so difficult and performing well at work was even more difficult.  I couldn’t remember things, I was getting confused easily - I just wasn’t myself.  Focus was impossible to gain.  My poor dog suffered.  I couldn’t find the energy to take him on a walk, and I didn’t go to the gym once.  A few days went by before I came to and realize what was going on.  Thanfully James had spent a lot of time out of the house so he didn’t have to deal with me wallowing in my own self pity.

So, yesterday, as I was coming to, things kind of clicked.  Only I can get myself out of a rut like that.  I know well enough that the feeling are never going to go away completely so when they do sneak up on me it’s my responsibility to fight them as hard as possible.  I allowed myself one more evening and then I promised myself it’d be over.  I felt like I had to give myself that one last night.  It’s hard to just switch mid-day and I don’t think I was completely ready to anyway.

This morning I got up early and went to the gym.  I ate a healthy breakfast and now have a Subway lunch date with James.  After work I’ll be heading back to the gym for weights and just a little more cardio.  As hard as it is to get there some days I find that the gym really helps with my mood.  It gives me a sense of purpose.  There’s also sun in the forecast for the next few days.  So even though it’s raining today, I’m not letting it get me down.

BBQ season is finally here and we now have a brand new grill so I’ll be making full use of that when I get home. I tend to totally give up on myself when I get into those ruts which only makes things worse so I definitely need to watch what I eat for the next few days.  I am not on a diet by any means.  I just need to eat less chocolate, more fruits and veggies.

So far I’m feeling just fine today.  Not over the top but not under the weather either and for that I am grateful!

jazzysymphonic:

Behind the brothel’s walls |  2012 | Kandapara Brothel, Bangladesh | Photography & Video by Andrew Biraj | Hashi & Maya [ via @AndrewBiraj @ReutersTV ]

Heartbreaking in under 2 minutes, these young women’s lives are displayed in brutal honesty, in these images and music. My heart cringes in pain for these girls, turned women too early, and tears stream for their loss. ~Rena~

I just ate a bag of chocolate for breakfast.  I feel like total crap for doing it but damn it tasted so good!!

Seriously, what is wrong with me?

Hi little land shark! (Taken with instagram)

This is where the cookies used to be. I like to watch skinny/pretty girlz on tv while I make myself fat :) (Taken with instagram)

I would love to have a little reading room with lanterns and pillows and sweet smelling candles.  And of course, walls of books.

Good morning.

Bed, I miss you already.

Summer time! (Taken with instagram)